Sunday, September 07, 2008
Written down @ 01:12♥
God is a faithful God, who never fails to deliver me out of any situations. It happens today again :)
Well, my parents are not Christians. In fact, my father's family is very traditional. We grew up offering incense to idols, whatever so. But I never understand why we did it, and I never like the images on the temple walls. Sometimes I will think God sound more peaceful, and I so-called choose to believe in Him when I was much younger in primary school.
I stopped going to temples during days like Vesak Day. I stopped having my shirt chomped with some "stamp". Cos I do not believe in such things, I started to dislike it. Because it always creep me out. When I truly know God is real, I wanted to give my life to Him. The devil made attempt to scare me away. But really, I hug the bible to sleep. The more he wants to attack, the more I want to run to God.
The true testing came when I need to face my family's tradition. I felt so guilty for the first time, when I joined in my grandfather's funeral. Then in Jan, I totally rejected joining in the ceremonies. No means NO. As I grow in God, I learn that it is NOT about not respecting your elders, but rather.. obeying God's commandment. He is my Lord. He is the ONLY God I worship, the only God I have in my life. I will NOT have other gods before Him. Sometimes I ask myself.. Why go through the troubles? With my relatives and even my dad giving us that "face".
Today.. I found out my answers. not only nobody commented about me and my brother not involving in offering incense, but I got the chance to tell my younger cousins about Christianity. They thought it was impossible to be a Christian if their parents are not. C'mon! WHY NOT?!And I'm ever more certain I'm gonna fight all these, as long it takes. This is a generation curse I must break. I stepped into the temple today, and felt no God's presence in the place. But as I began to seek, God was dwelling in my heart. And when I stepped into church, God's presence is everywhere. In fact, He inhabits the place. I could feel the peace. Call me silly, call me crazy.. God is really real..
I know one day my family will be saved, praising God together with me. Cos God never forgets His promises :)
