lets track bck mio day.
we met arnd 3 plus at JE, went IKEA.
evo was supposed to select her table lamp. =x
and i bought this 12 different sizes of boxes.
hahas. very cute.
went to expo.
it was really crowded.
quite sum pple from swiss went to0.
er, andrew, ismail, wenyi, jemi, etc.
and i tot again, i cant get into city harvest service.
but phew. it was jus the crowd comin out from the previous service.
when we entered, it was whoa. BIG.
loads of pple.
at first, it was singing..
everyone became so "high"..
it was kinda frightening..
esp. lester.
he totally became another person.
initially he wanted me to sit with deborah.
so she can share with sum stuffs with me..
i jus gave him that face.. "FER WHAT?!"
he gave me the impression..
of lke "forcing" .. hmm, nvms.
i onli knew one song.
which is " i could sing of ur love forever"
jus now went lookin fer mio pri sch song book.
but it was missing!
suppose to be nxt to mio bed.
i duno where i put it. sumwhere in the rm, i suppose.
nxt was a play..
the effects were gud.
couldnt stand those makeup on "jesus"
reminded me of passion of christ.
really bloody. ouchs.
the play was great anywae..
then, the pastor gave his talk.
n it was the prayer dat made mio tears
he said sth lke.. sum of u went to christians schs etc, and heard of the gospel..
yet dun dare to open up..
and sth sth else..
i heard it, mio tears wanna flow out soon.. AHH.
was touched.
its true. i've been to St Joseph's kindergarden.
start singing from "with christ in the vessel" and everything else
to "the power of love" and " u're all in all"..
prayin everyday..
learning verses everywk in pri sch. proverbs n psalms i rmed mostly..
first 3/4 yrs i was so into it when i was in pri sch.
till p5, i got bored. and started reading bks when everyone's singing.
during christian value lessons, i will rot arnd and crap with frens.
its lke.. im on and off believing His existence..
as i recalled wad happened last yr..
more tears..
and its lke when i need great help, i will start praying and blah blah.
den i will lke forget abt Him when everything's fine.
its kinda fake, and unfair?
im uncertain, dats all i can sae.
jus not ready? wad lies ahead of me? i duno either..
i jus dun believe enuff? but everytime the services jus touch me.
maybe jus one fine day, i'll be ready.
i believe so.