Friday, September 24, 2004
Written down @ 00:39♥
went sch with "draggy" feeling. it was practically lke all moi emotions are sucked away. and i felt nth. numbness.all i tot is i-duno-what-will-happen. well, i noe and i realised. i said everything i wana sae.. . i feel so much better. its lke all the while the im being cooped inside. i wanted to scream out loud but i cant. personal attack i resorted to. i realised. too many things happened. ive no confidence to carry on it felt lke its have been a toO heavy burden. i wana tell but i hesitated. i hesitated toO much. im sorrie dat i've caused such unhappiness. perhaps i shld change moi pt of view of life. always tryin to cheer myself up and all i got is lies to make myself comfortable. in the end, i suffered more misery. life used to be so carefree. i was simply jumpin arnd so happily without noticing what is going arnd me. i jus wanted to be the me that i used to be. but i cant.. sighhs. i duno. there r alot things that are bothering me..wish dat everything will get so much better.
xams r jus arnd the corner. and tests nxt wk. im afraid i cant take it. these few days, im being so tired. todae.. i can hardly open moi eyes during math remedial. it have been ages that we went to the hall. the sch broke the record anywae. most students goin fer DC todae. miss wong was pissed with us. practically more than half of the cls never brought their "grammer in use" bk. the teachers are driving everyone nuts. sighhs. that is such a depressing entry. but one thing did lighten up moi feeling. i got 75 fer moi chi compo. ever fer the first time. usualli i'll get as low as 50 plus. waikit and honglin couldnt believe it. their shocking faces gave me the sense of satisfaction. makes me regain confidence in myself that i can write gud chinese essay. i din expect myself to b that gud either.. perhaps that was luck. but i hope it was my hard work. alritey.. have change moi blog layout. feeling veri tired now.. finish it up sum dae ltr. it's not completed yet.ciao`
me,myself and I`
