Wednesday, August 25, 2004
Written down @ 13:54♥
it has not stopped raining. Hopes it rains on.. Things aint going really well todae. woke up arnd 640. feeling so sick of sch once again. dragged myself outta bed. missed the bus. urghh. feeling pretty irritated. moi shoulder was painful. must hav slpt in some wrong position last nite. stomped moi way up the stairs. english lesson, tot I could slp.. feeling veri tired. ended up we had to do comprehension. boringgg.. miss yee brought us to ITR. well, I got her confused by the word "hypoglycemia". she went abit nuts. or.. she was realli over-sensitive. firstly, she scolded regina. nxt, she accused one of the boys saying vulgarities. I heard none. lastly, she scolded meiyue fer no reason. saying that her attitude in learning is horrible. question marks were popping in moi head.. seriously, none of us did anything wrong. she is a weird cher. recess- alrite. the meal was not worth it. got pissed by sum pple's attitude. I am so not gona bother abt him anymore. not his servant. he can yell at somebody nxt time. geog lesson - I kept dozing off. arnd 2pm after sch, went to hall. and saw 3e1 guys, all of them wearing blue hse tee "dancing".. mr jason lim's idea, I suppose. totalli.. dumb. waited fer fahrul n luqman others. spent quite a hard time pleading the guys to the hall.. alritey, we got bad comments. real badd ones. guys had no idea wad to do. they were pretty blur. their absence fer last thur caused it. dun blame them! well, the teachers started to blabber their comments. we tried the song "addicted". agreed that it was more energetic. but they jus dun lke the ideas. blah blah blah`. everything jus got screwed up within mins. the guys left. mrs chin came over and sang the song " that thing U do". whoever heard it went nuts. laughin lke there is no tml. I was almost in tears. she is realli.. whoa. screamed her vocals out. we sang "addicted" again. they disagreed this n that. wuzhen cher started to crapp. and I dun get her. frankly speaking, I find her real annoying. tried our best to "negotiate" with the chers. forget it. they r getting on moi nerves. mrs lee was faking to b sorrie fer us. ended up, we din perform. din wana ruin luqman and the others' chances. spoil the whole picture.. mrs lee was tryin to act innocent. mentioning her so-called burnt leg. alritey, it had been abt 5 days? I was so annoyed by her excuses. I became real sacarstic. she started to stutter. she n her pathetic excuses again. she made an effort to see the rehearsal so do we. sounded as if we r the ones foOling arnd. forget it den. everyone walked away in their directions. either in rush or annoyance. went back cls n saw cards all messed up on the floOr. guys. urghhh! saytiong taunted me again. I was no moOd to yell back. duhh. went bustop, meet xw. went CDANS. treat myself ice-cream. still feelin veri pissed. hate chers who r tryin to push fault, sense of responsibility all poof! gone. waited at the bustop real long. was squashed nxt to mr reuben yong.
was feeling so rotten thru out the whole journey. jus so much emotions pouring out. sumtimes tried to pretend everything's alrite. but I am jus simply lying to myself. ignorance causes misery. there r pretty much stuffs that r troublin me. somehow caught in the middle. I gt certain of tolerance. boOm. I'll xplode one day. sumtimes felt lke jus leaving the hse. and walked in alone in the nights. tried that once. parents tot I went to buy sth. they din realli care. exams r comin. and yet I am still in a slping mode. flunkin subjects are not moi favs. urghh. was so sick of everything. perhaps even of myself. I am feeling sick now. moi ulcer's killin me and getting bigger. yikes! pray hard I will b sick and I can forget abt attending sch. or else I will jus slip into the world of depression. supposingly, wana wash moi bike. but. felt so vexed.. shut myself in the rm fer an hr with blasting music and air-con, I felt so much better. anywae, thanks. or else I would have screwed up even worse..
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